It has been some time since Ive wrote. Not that I have not had PLENTY to write about because I could have probably wrote several novels by now. I have so many things I want to do, need to do. Sometimes I get so overwhelmed with what I should or should not do and how each and every decision or action I make will effect everyone and myself. Writing has always helped me sort my thoughts and I find it much easier to explain my thought and feelings when I write. There are so many changes I want to make in my life and I just do not know where or how to begin at times. Sometimes, I even get frustrated because it seems like things are just so unobtainable or are simply just not happening like I would hope. I want to start living each and every day to my full potential and to fulfill the purpose God created my life for. I want to be on fire for the Lord. I want people to see Him when they look at my life. I have such a great testimony and need/want to make a difference.
Tomorrow I begin a new job. My first job back in the medical field since moving to Pennsylvania. I have so many different thoughts and emotions I am experiencing right now. My biggest obstacle is being away from my babies, the youngest two for the first time EVER. I know that I am doing it for our future and that it is only three days a week….truth be told they will not even hardly notice that Im gone for nine hours each day. I am terrified of failure. I am so thankful for the opportunity that I am being given and I am excited. I know that new things can be scary and I also know that at times it is the best thing! I have been so fortunate to be able to stay home with my babies the last nine years, my husband has made sure that our every need and want has been met and he would gladly do so for the rest of our lives. This will be a new adventure for us all and will greatly benefit our family. I hope that I can be a blessing to each person coming into my life. I hope to learn something each and every day. I want to be the very best I can be at everything that I do and grow as a christian, a mother, a wife, and a person….starting something new.